Going back over my gaming history I remember the last time a game made me feel like something I was capable of could make a difference. That game just happened to be Jet Set Radio and while I never strapped on a set of roller blades and decided to go out and tag the streets(Well I did once or twice but that’s besides the point) this game was truly a standout part of my history.
I’d like to go and encourage everyone (I know I don’t have many followers) to go out and pursue what you truly do want, and shape your own future.
This is more useful than school!
Hey peeps, whats up. This is your not quite dead, not quite living panda buddy. I know I’ve been away for a while…10 days to be exact and I know someones probably called the police to wonder about where I’ve been. I can explain I promise, and I promise I wasn’t at that slut facebook’s house.
You see, the day after I made my last post my computer was assaulted by a nasty piece of malicious malware that it took quite some work to rid myself of. After a 4 day long epic struggle I managed to get rid of it. Unfortunately it had managed to wreak havoc on my systems computer registries and I was without internet, or much of anything that my computer was capable of. A few more days of tinkering and I finally had it up and working again.
Now however I’ve got a bit of a problem. I’m uncomfortable, and I’ve felt this way for a few days now. I dont think its the usual fear that I have thats accompanied with meeting the girl that I’ve been in love with for the greater part of the last 8 years. I just feel like I’m at a very wrong point in my life. I pray that this wont have a negative effect on my relationship with Kitten or my love of writing.
Anyway, I’ll do those 10 missed ldr challenge posts and try and catch up again.
For the past few days I’ve been worried out of my mind about something. The love of my life wants to visit me next month. Now this in itself is wonderful, nearly 10 years of speaking with her, growing close to her, sharing good times and bad with her. The problem comes in how much I’ve told my family about her, my relationship with my family is…arms length, I don’t talk to them unless either I or they need something, and for so long that’s worked out well enough„ ,now however I need something that they require input on. You see she’d be staying with us, and as far as that goes I have next to no idea how they’d react to me asking to let someone who they consider a “complete stranger” stay in our house for any length of time.
My mother and my sister talk, ceaselessly, its almost impossible to get them to stop talking about something once their mind is set into motion. I don’t know why then, that I thought my mom would be tactful when I asked her initially about my love staying with me. She didnt, I managed to discover that shes told not only my sister, her friend, and my aunt, but also her sisters husband and my mothers boyfriend also found out, near immediately (clearly I was mistaken in even thinking that my mother knew anything of the word tact let alone how to manage it)
Anyway after a night full of drunken shenanigans, alcohol induced social interaction (i’m a bit of an introvert) a very interesting football game, and several “deep family conversations” I discovered that beyond all of my families chiding, joking, tactless joking, and lack of trust in my ability to make good decisions, they actually do care and hope that in the end my feelings aren’t shattered by finally meeting the woman I’ve come to feel a deep connection with over all these years. Beyond what I thought about my families closed-mindedness they seem to truly care about the strange loner that lives in their house…and I’m actually proud to call them family.
Day 9: Favorite thing she/he has given you?
Day 10: Favorite thing about him/her?
Well my favorite thing shes given me is 10 years of ability to stretch my creativity while enjoying her companionship. If there was one person that I would never tire of its her
My favorite thing about her is her ability to find wonder in even insignificant things. The things I find small, uninteresting, and even aggravating she can find wonderful, surprising or even terrifying.
Day 8: Favorite thing you’ve given him/her?
Well this is a hard question, we haven’t had the option of giving each other anything physical. However ‘thing’ is a very vague term too however so I think I’ll say that I’ve given her nearly 10 years of love, respect, and entertainment and pray that she doesn’t think I’m being a narcissist.
Day 7: How do you communicate with each other?
When we started it was private messages and forum conversations. As we grew closer we moved to instant messengers. MSN to be exact. More time went on, eventually I gave her my phone number and she occasionally called me (because I have this thing where whenever I call people I have absolutely no idea what to say) A little later (read: after I got my own computer) we both got Skype we’d voice chat.
And that is the story of our communication history